nothing to say.

I have been attempting to pen down some thoughts but each time, I stare at this space - I become dazed and stoic. 
Suppose, I shall retreat for a bit and live life.

excuse me.

sorry for the outburst on my last post hey?

i am ok now.

i am calm.

see, smiling already. ^________^

A Father's day post. (sort of)

I rushed into the streets of baclaran along with almost 50 other people, hoping to find a bus for my one-hour ride home. I sat my butt down into the first and only sight of vacant seat I saw. The seats were completely saturated.

Then came a couple with the lady holding a baby/infant (I don't know what you call that), and the guy holding two heavy bags. The person next to me got up, and the lady with the child sat down. I got up to let the father sit next to them, 

and he said "No, no, it's okay." (hindi na, ok lang)

I insisted that he sits, while he insisted that I stay seated. I then went on to command him, 

"Sit next to them!" (tumabi ka na po sa kanila!) in a gentle but nudging kind of way.

He said, "No, really, I appreciate it!" (hindi, ok lang talaga, pero salamat neng). 

Defeated, I sat down next to the lady with the infant, afraid that my arm might accidentally hit her head and cause brain damage with my superior strength.

And then I saw it.

He stood in front of the lady with the infant, and just watched over them. He gently nudged the little girl's cheek while she fell fast asleep in her mother's arms. And he just watched. Protecting them. Looking out for them.

It's a blessing to have a complete and loving family. I smile as I feel the warmth from this loving image. How easy it is to forget when we are being watched over, protected, embraced, and loved by the people who matter.

skype madness

tina (7:27:37 PM): is it raining there

tina (7:27:40 PM): its raining here

Me (7:27:41 PM): no

Me (7:27:43 PM): it did

Me (7:27:44 PM): a lil

tina (7:27:45 PM): ohh

Me (7:27:49 PM): before it was horrendous

Me (7:27:52 PM): it was oruding

Me (7:27:55 PM): porugng

tina (7:28:02 PM): pouring?

Me (7:28:04 PM): yeah

tina (7:28:06 PM): haha

Me (7:28:07 PM): lol

tina (7:28:09 PM): i though

tina (7:28:10 PM): thought

tina (7:28:11 PM): that was

Me (7:28:12 PM): i was looking at something else

tina (7:28:14 PM): some high vocab

Me (7:28:16 PM): LOL

Me (7:28:17 PM): LOL

tina (7:28:20 PM): i was like.. oruding?

tina (7:28:21 PM): what is that

tina (7:28:24 PM): i was about to look it up

Me (7:28:26 PM): nah just typos

Me (7:28:35 PM): hahahhahahhahahhahahha


(I find this funny and worth posting here. not all i say is something to google for. :D)

weird

After running around like a chicken with my head cut off, I've
realized it has been a very strange day, in terms of how i feel.

I'm getting random waves of emotion. All of a sudden I'll be really
happy... then I"ll be really lonely, then I'll be really tired... Its
really weird. Not too sure what to think about it all....üä

God's gift and me

I used to like rain.

I thought it was romantic. You can do anything in the rain and it would be cute. Dancing in the rain, kissing in the rain, being under an umbrella in the rain, etc. Right now though, it's not that pretty anymore. It's not pretty wearing black pants that are soaked from the bottom up. It's not pretty juggling an umbrella and bags and your mp3 player all at the same time.

It's as if God is crying.

Yesterday, as I got off the express bus and walked toward my house, I couldn't wait to pass by my favorite tree. The last time I passed by it, the vibrant pink flowers caught my eyes. It was like God's gift to me, to be able to see such an amazing sight. It was different. It was unique. It stood out. It was mine!

But yesterday all the pinkness was no more. It had already turned colors. It was green just like any other tree in the neighborhood. I felt like God was taking away my gift. It was raining that day.

How silly of me....üä

another turning point @ 19th street

Nineteen years have come and gone, and maybe I'm none the wiser.
Sometimes, at reflective mood, I dare not laugh at life.
Overall I'm proud of who I am, and where I've been, and where I'll be and everyone within my life who's made me as I am.
I've seen and done and felt and learned things that maybe no one else know.
In many ways, I grew up young, in other ways not so.
And time will tell what weights I bear, and to what trails I succumb.
But none dare argue, atleast not I, that I have so much to thank God for.
My family, my friends, my ability, my better half, the fact that I can laugh later, sometimes much much later, at the inevitable pain of breath.
But now nineteen tallies, nineteen years I have to claim in many ways the wiser for it, in many ways the stronger for it, and always, always thankful for it...üä

..halimaw si Sir!!!..

"bakit mo pa pahihirapan ang sarili mo kung pwede mo nang ipasa ang testpaper? Kung wala ka nang maisagot, ipasa mo na, baka matukso ka pang mangopya, mahuli pa kita, edi naminusan ka pa"

ito ang linyang madalas sabihin ni Prof. De Guia (area coordinator ng jpia pup-cavite) samen tuwing nahahalata nyang para na kaming may mga pigsa sa puwet na di malaman kung anung pwesto ng pagkakaupo ang gagawin. Halimaw di ba??
2nd evaluation exam ng practical accounting part2 namen nun, at gaya dati, mga bangag na naman kami sa kaaaral, bago mag-exam, super plano na kami kung paanung "cheating arrangement" ang gagawin namen, kanya-kanyang review, nagtatanungan kung saang reviewer kaya kukuha si Sir ng exam, ocampo, roque o valix ba? o baka naman sa resa, cpar o prtc? sa dami nun, di na naman malaman kung panung aral ang gagawin, lalu na ako na hindi naman talaga masipag mag-aral, ayay (tai ako jan).
Oras na ng exam, laking gulat namen na sa ibang room kami pinag-exam, at hindi sa accounting lab, sira ang cheating arrangement! Pagkatanggap pa sa textpaper, halos mawindang ang buong pagkatao naming lahat. Pang out of this world ang hirap ng exam! Grabe, pakiramdam ko, lalabas na yung utak ko at tumakbo palayo sa testpaper na yun, hindi pa makalingon sa katabi dahil nasa likod namen si sir, konting galaw lang namen, kitang kita niya.
Pagkatapos ng exam, napagalaman namen na ang pinagkuhanan ng exam ay galing sa librong ginamit namen 2 years ago, nung 2nd year palang kami. Sino ba namang mag-aakala nun?
Grabe, halimaw talaga si Sir!...üä